Posted 14:20 by Tycho

Today sucks...I just went through a total system reboot, a mental/nervous breakdown.

Right over brunch with my family. It took all my strength and resilience not to start crying. Everything hit me at once, the anger, regret, stress, sadness, loneliness, etc...all the bad feelings I could ever have nailed me at the same time.

I wanted to go to West Street House to get some counselling, to get some help. Unfortunately they were closed. I still feel like crying, but I don't have anywhere where I can do it in private (men do cry, only if there isn't anyone else around) and scream until my throat is raw and bloody.

Last time, I was lucky, and avoided it...this time I wasn't so lucky. I'm still being pummeled around by it, and tears well up every now and then.

I don't want to explain it here. Too much to tell. Some of it I'd rather not have available for anyone at random to see.


Its too much for me to handle, I need help. Maybe not professional help (I'm not whacked), but all my friends have been there for me so far, and I have faith that they will be there for me this time. Thank God for them.