Posted 00:48 by Tycho

Yeah. Tired. Excellent. Not really. Hate this. Hate life. Ooh. Candy. Must eat. Sugar good. Need more. Get some. Now. Roommates stupid. Using dvorak. What. The. Fuck. They insane. Very much. There go. Wow. Life fucktacular. Not really. It sucks. What do? Live it. Can't stop. Only forward. Never back. Hate this. Time machine? Can't. Fix? I tried. Things worse. Me tired. Tired. Sleep. Rest. Hate life. Hate me. Try fixing. Not work. Failed horribly. Bah. What do? Live on. Only thing. Forward. Never back. Life? Is game. Losing badly. Value in struggle. Not in victory. Nor defeat. Effort counts. Only personally. Effort not. Count in. Others' eyes. Shows obsession. Maybe. Just maybe. Fighting imporant. Not give. Never surrender. Failed horribly. Insanity. Me. I am. Welcome. In Fucktardia. Mistake land. [My Life]. Retarded not want. But am.

Fight on. Fight on. Only way. Never give. Never surrender. Fight on. Fight well. Defeat? Most likely. Scared? Never. Never scared. Always fight. Always fight. Victory? No. Must try. Never give. Never surrender. Must do. Or die. Alternate way? None. Never. Only fight. Fight on. Fight well. Use everything.

Tired. Of fighting. Yes. Want curl. Want cry. Want this. Want that. No get. No get. Never get. I try. Never get. Never. Fight on. With strength. With honor. No alternative. Must try. Must try. Effort applied. Effort wasted? Never. Effort can't. Defeat? Not afraid. Face it. With honor. With dignity. Summon strength. To fight.

Strength gone. Curl up. Die. Never. Fight on. Fight well. I must. Til Death. I must. I will. Trust God? Absolutely. Never doubt. Faith always. Til Death. And beyond. Show path. Guide me. Give strength. Give wisdom. Allow honor. Show path. Show path. Guide me. Lost. Very lot. No clue. Tired life. Forcefully onward. Not give. Not now. Too early. Too young. Onward. Onward. No back. Only forward. Give guidance. Hold hand. Lead me. Path lost. Help find. Guide me. Need it. Badly.

Lost control? Yes. Worried? No. God there. Always there. Never go. Can't care. But do. I do. I shouldn't. But do. Why care? Because hurt. Always hurt. Pain stay. Don't want. Can't shake. Onward only. Never back. Face future. Not past. Past over. Future not. Come soon. Then present. Then worry. Then past. No worry. I worry. Scared. Always scared. Need help. God help. God there. Always there. Calms me. Keeps sane. Maybe not. Gives help. Always. Never fails. Unlike me. Only know failure. Nothing else. Only failure. In everything. Everything. No success. Need success. Losing faith. Not divine. But myself. Losing faith in myself. Yes. Thats it. Myself. Need success. Want success. Tried hard. Hardest. Still fail. What do? No clue. Lost. Very lost. Which way? Right way? Where? How? Guide me. Hold hand. Lead. Show way.

Want happiness. Not get. Risked all. And lost. Breath word? Yes. Not man. I'm not. Not yet. Breathed word. When happy again? When? Don't know. Maybe never. Life unhappy. Need happy. Never get. Friends happy. Happy for them. I am. But why? Why they happy? Never me? Lot in life? Possibly. Not sure. Hopefully not. Not give up. Never surrender. Fight on. Defeat? Most likely. Scared? Never. Need happy. Do anything. Well. Not anything. Almost anything. Not dishonor. Never dishonor. Fight to victory. For happiness. Lost it. Can't find. Want happiness. Looking for. Not find. Never find. Lost forever. God help. Protect me. Look over me. Keep safe. What do? Don't know. Will do? One thing. Fight. Til Death. Only thing. Can do. Nothing else. Nothing else. Never works. Always left for dead. Always. Never saved. Happiness gone. Not saved. Left for dead. Need happy. Need sanity. No shithouse. No. Not anymore. Never again. Pain. Too much. Can't do. Always pain. Why pain? Why not happiness? Love? Both? Need. Need. One thing. That's it. Just one. Need. Nothing else. Just want.

Need strength. Must go. Keep going. Never stop. Forward. Onwards. Follow me. Don't look. Never retreat. Never give up. Never surrender. Fight onwards. Fight hard. Fight well. Never stop. Must keep fighting. No surrender. Need wisdom. Lost. Onward regardless. Never back. Always forward. Fight hard. Fight well. Know how. Only thing. Only fight. Fight on. Can't stop. Never stop. Stop is surrender. No give up. No surrender. Not know how. Never know how. Refuse know. Won't know. Only onward. Never stall. Fight on. Fight on. Keeping going. Til Death.

God help. Always does. Savior. Give wisdom. Give strength. Give honor. Give compassion. Martial. Give Excalibur. Light. Long blade. Keen edge. Strong. Divine weapon. Will fight. Victory nigh. No doubt. Never doubt. Always faith. In God. In self. God especial. Not fail. I fail. Always fail. God not. Only I. Lost path. Guide me. Hold hand. Lead me.

Follow me. Fight on. Fight hard. Fight well. God help. Always. Faith. Honor. Courage. Respect. Compassion. Yes. Armed. Armored. Shielded. Ready.

Need happiness. Will fight. Always fight. No give up. Need happiness. Never get. Will fight. Always forward. Never back. Need happiness. Maybe get. If fight. If faithful. Will get. Need.