Posted 22:52 by Tycho

I'm a little insane right now. Just pushed to the limit at the minute. So I feel like ranting.

Ok, 3 posts in a single day. I know, I know, I've got too much time on my hands. No, I don't. Today has been overall a really shitty day. I mean, other than going out for a run, it's absolutely sucked.

First, the Geology field trip is in the 21st. Damnit! Secondly, I'm getting stressed out over Dynamics. What the fuck? This stuff just doesn't make ANY sort of sense. Well, that doesn't matter. It will be done, regardless of how long it takes me. It needs to be done. My mind just won't slow down...it's constantly racing. And it's starting to affect my life. I'll get nervous over nothing, or irritated over tiny little things that I'd normally find funny. I can't relax...I'm increasingly restless. The other night I couldn't get to sleep...went to bed at midnight, and it was after 3:30 when I finally got some shut-eye. Just so much work to be done. I just wish I'd die. I was wicked tired...but my mind wouldn't let me go to sleep, I couldn't relax.

Despite all this stress and everything, there are many bright spots in my life. First and foremost, is God. My family keeps me going and motivated to not just give up on everything. And my friends...oh...what the hell would I do without you guys? Life wouldn't be worth living without you gentlemen and ladies. I also got wicked awesome news Tuesday night (things got lost in translation).

I'm being worn down. Please forgive me if I seem strange, and bear with me. I'm doing my best to keep everything going, but things are starting to fall apart on me. My thinking, my schoolwork, my personality. Sometimes it's hard to look on the bright side. Aye, things pile up and clutter up the sun.

Remember, no matter how well you plan things, stuff might go wrong. And even if nothing goes wrong, everything works perfectly, it's not your fault, but you can still lose. I just can't get ahead or win. But I'll keep trying. Always carry forward, and never give up...and never surrender.

Which brings me to this quote, which Chris had better be able to recognize straight off the bat:

There is no shame in defeat, so long as the soul remains unvanquished.

I've got half the term to go. And it's got me bouncing off walls. Which means one thing. Time to band with my roommates and face it together. Working as a team is so much easier and rewarding than working alone.

I don't mean to freak you guys out--I'm doing well and surviving...in fact, much better off than many others. I also am usually quite happy. I just feel a great weight on me now. I just needed to vent here for a few minutes. Because I know you've noticed a change in my behavior, or at least my roommates have, to some degree.

Currently playing: Run Away, by Linkin Park...and Basketcase by Green Day.

Fare all of you well. Now go forth. And fear no darkness!