Posted 23:34 by Tycho

Ok. Pseudo-rant time. I'm under alot of stress. I don't need anymore of it to be added. Do not give hints to me, just come out and say it, sorta-blunt like. I don't have the time or patience to decipher what you mean. I'm not impatient, but I've got lots of things to keep abreast of, without having to worry about what something means.

I'm tired of trying to keep in touch with people. If you want to talk, you know how to reach me. I'm done trying to contact people...they just seem so annoyed to have to deal with me. Am I really that bad? I'm just not going to go out of my way to talk to people, I'm tried of hearing their reactions. The last thing I need to hear is "oh, it's you...". You all know where and how to reach me, so if you want to talk, you have to do some legwork now.

There is so much caffeine in my system that my hands constantly shake, and my mind won't stop racing. I can't concentrate on anything for more than a few minutes. I'm pretty sleep-deprived, and am tired all day, and am not motivated to do anything. The only thing that perks me up is keeping contact with people. But no one seems to really want to talk to me. I usually go out of my way to talk to them, and keep in touch. But now it always seems as if I'm a burden to them. I'll call someone, and it's a "Oh. It's you, again." sort of thing. If my trying to keep up with everyone else is an annoyance, well, screw it. As I said earlier, if you want to keep in touch, you know how to reach me. What the hell is wrong with me?

Heck, even my eyes changed color! <--- Seriously, not yanking your chain. They're still green, but the weird flecks in there just keep changing color on me.

I actually had written this huge long rant earlier, but it was pretty extreme and foul mouthed. So I came back and edited it after I calmed down a bit. Just had a stress/panic attack a while ago, and that post was a result of it.

I just don't understand life. Would someone care to explain it to me, please?

I just want to put my head through the wall. I need something to punch. Like right now. Because I am pretty angry, resentful, envious, and pretty much all the other negative emotions, right now, all wrapped up into one quivering package. I don't know why I'm such an annoyance to people now. What is wrong with me?

You know what? It's almost 1 AM. Why am I up bitching and moaning like I always do? Hell, I've talked to a couple of you, but unfortunately it hasn't helped. It's too complex to explain in a short amount of time. I mean, if someone had a half hour or so to spare, maybe I could get some of this huge weight off my chest.

Again, it's almost 1 AM. I should go to sleep and pray that I feel better when I wake up.

Fare ye well, and keep to your path.