Posted 01:03 by Tycho

Ok, I've felt markably better lately. But the need to fix things is still ingrained in me.

Jen, I'm sorry for being an asshole, made you feel uncomfortable, and was not receptive to what you were saying. I wasn't receptive because it felt to me you were saying one thing, and doing another. From what I've heard from other people, the reason why you did do as you said was because I didn't listen. I'm sorry.

I miss you, and I want you back in my life. I understand you aren't interested in me at all, romantically. I don't care. I'd love to keep you as a friend, but I'm afraid that you don't want to have things like that. I'm afraid that you just want to put as much distance between us as possible, and keep it there, permanently.

Josh, lets fix things up. The only thing that I need to resolve with you right now (that I can think of...I'm pretty tired, and so I've forgotten alot of what I wanted to say) is how it seemed you were so possessive of her, and how much that bothered and hurt me. I'm sure you have similar issues with me.

Maybe the three of us should get together for a couple hours on Monday, somewhere private, and hash everything out. I don't want our friendships to fall apart. I want to fix them. Both of you mean alot to me.

I'm seeing the end of the tunnel...but I don't know if its light out or if darkness has fallen on the outside...