Posted 09:15 by Tycho

This one's for Chris, who is feeling sort of worthless, still.

I'd like to invite you to join my club. Free. As much food, soda, Risk playing, video games, and movies as you want (take the damned hint!).



As for myself. I feel like shit right now. A damned, worthless piece of shit, with no future, and nothing to look forward to in life. I don't know why I trudge onward, if all it does it give me pain and suffering.

If I could get one thing for Christmas, I'd have to choose between two things: forgiveness, or give me time travel, so I can go back in time 10 weeks and relive my life, so I don't fuck up so badly.

I feel like curling up into a little ball and bawl my eyes out. I won't--I have too much pride for that. So I'll just sit here and feel depressed and know I can't do anything about my current situation. Everything is out of my control, and I'm at the mercy of life's winds.

A few minutes ago, I was shaking uncontrollably. Not from cold, but from pain, regret, and sadness.

Nothing to look foward to--not even Christmas Break is making me feel better. I just feel like a pile of goo that is trying to form itself into something better, but in the end, it's just a pile of goo.

I hate my life.